One such uncertainty was my let go letter. Back in April, I received notice that there was no job for me once the company merged, but if I continued to work at the company until the time of merge I would receive a severance. I was 25 and being laid off. But I was also experiencing a phenomenon impacting that is becoming more frequent - the closing of universities.
Yesterday, I got an update to this. There was a letter (and position) up because one of my co-workers left for a different position. And I received a new letter - one that encouraged me to stay on and work at this merged entity. After so long with unknown information, I received this steady branch. Yet I feel more shaken because of it. I'm the newest in the department, and every day I see the quality and drive of my co-worker. This isn't just a negative outlook, this really confounds me. She is an incredibly diligent worker. Can they not see or hear that? I am appreciative of the faith put in me, and I do see the praise for this - I am capable and have value to the team.
I was able to address a few of my concerns (because I only had a few as this was a surprise). And I was honest with my leadership that I was job searching, and they encouraged me to continue to do so - to attend the job fair on my horizon. At this point, I don't know what's next. I have a bit of a safety net I suppose, so that has reduced a bit of my anxiety.
I have already set my sights on finding something new. Now I just have a little more of the ball in my court.
And today? Today I am still doing my best. There is a weird atmosphere, but I am one to work transparently. I will continue as I am. I will make the calls I need, and I won't let this opportunity be a safety I don't venture out of.