I'm working to reach 100% (or close enough). I have my dream job, so I intend to keep it, but also, what's next? Where's my career, Flynn Rider (in a completely career oriented "you're my new dream" that is very independent of all other individuals. I think I lost the point of that comment early)? And with enough time to stabilize here, I'm starting the new things. And I'm returning to the blogging. Or a re-branded blog at least.
So I have really been out of touch lately. There's a lot I WANT to do, but that list tends to get longer and longer with no actual resolutions. Like I completely want to do over this, but I have lots of ideas that just haven't started yet. I think for now, I'm going to minimize.
But today, I wrote a book. It's a children's(ish) book, but I did it. I researched, wrote, and illustrated it in 4 hours, so it's a bit of a rough draft. But I did it. It's an idea that I have had for a long while, and I did it.
I'm working towards getting out of the slump I am currently in, and this feels like a step in the right direction. I've started making heart shapes to myself, along with comments of "adore you" to myself too.
"Cowards die many times before their deaths - the valiant never taste of death but once." -- Julius Caesar, Shakespeare.
Ok, so while this is excessively over-dramatic, it doesn't quite hit the note for those with anxiety. It's like telling us to be calm. We know what a waste worrying is and now we're frustrated that you're telling this to us too! Maybe I want to take a different approach to my anxiety than "get over it." For now, I'm attempting to use it as a tool.
This uphill climb is going to start with a bit of structure. And no, blogging is not going to be one of those structured things I do. It's still going to be a "when I want to," but the more I work on this, the more I suspect I will want to.