Yesterday, I gave a presentation to a fraternity in hopes to recruit more individuals for an organization I am in. Around 30 people were there, and I was not suffering from anxiety as I typically do. I knew what I was going to say, and I just said it. I could feel the fear rising up, but I was able to squash it back into submission. And apparently it worked because 7 individuals are interested in joining. This is great! I've been trying to make myself more available to members and I think it is working out so far and I really can see several members getting inducted this semester (including myself!).
That mood has carried over to today! This morning during class, I spoke up multiple times. I don't often talk in class, and even when I answer things correctly, I feel self-conscious of myself. I felt that today too, but it was just an awareness of, "Shouldn't I feel awkward now?" but I didn't.
There have been so many amazing things that occurred today, and I got a phone call that I was not anticipating for another week. But things are turning out really good, and though I should be concerned of how and where the other shoe will drop (ironic as I watch a Speaker Broadcast from Blake Mycoskie, the creator of Toms), I can't be. I'm in the moment and why can't I be. Things are going smoothly at the moment.
As I have mentioned, I am watching a Speaker Broadcast for an organization I am in, the National Society of Leadership and Success. At the beginning of the presentation, they have trivia questions, and I went ahead and tweeted my answer, and was selected. And I was in that moment of "Elizabeth, that's my name. . . Wood, that's me. And that's my school! That is me!" So I am still in that high that happens when things go swell, and I'm okay with being in this moment right now. It's a good place to be, and a good change of place. I hope to keep it, but I'm not going to overly concern myself with that. My Desktop background says "Here and now," and I will try.
I also just had a program this evening that was a self-awareness program and though I did not have that many attending, it went well. The activity involved writing your weaknesses on a paper and then tearing that paper. I gave the example and presented and tore my paper and this is how it turned out.
And I just realized where it was and found my missing $20. Heck ya!